It's an occasion le parents get more opportunities to pick on each other. Peaceful time at home is something which I cherish a lot, sadly CNY robs me of that.
Recent years mom has also been picking on me a lot. Demanding me to do things for her, for the family and for my brother.
I actually don't mind. I'll do it when I'm done settling the matters I have at hand. But impatience and the need for efficiency run in the females of this family. So most of the time we just ended up quarrelling because she thinks that I'm a selfish shit who's reluctant to help.
Many of my brother's matters have somehow became my responsibility now. Again I totally don't mind helping him out, but I hate it when she made them my obligations.
I am hardly even bothered by such things now. It's just that they are happening too often these days due to cny & also the bro being away in NS.
Our reunion dinner is always a mistake - no matter which side I choose someone will be mad at me, yet I cannot choose to not go at all or choose not to make the decision. Actually why do I even call them reunion dinners? When it always comes with my mom's or dad's absence?
Life would've been less drama if I had a functional family. I wouldn't have to be the decision maker when we are stuck in sticky situations.
Dirty laundries are meant to be kept within the family but sometimes it's too much. & nobody would understand except for the bro, but I don't think he understands anymore since he's away 90% of the time.
Dysfunctional families produce dysfunctional kids. I hope this cycle is breakable because if I ever have kids, I don't want them to be in my situation.
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